Just so you know, you are unique, you are beautiful, you are amazing. You do not need to cut yourself.
Day 2: Crush
Hi. Hello. Hi. :”> I hope that I’d see you more everywhere, lol. Owell, I guess I’m into guys with bad boy, playboy auras again. I heard that you’re actually a real good guy though. :) I hope that by the next time I see you, I can gather up the courage to confidently greet you, and I hope I get to know you more when the opportunity (where I won’t be blushing and trembling in KV, ehem) comes. :)
No matter how much I describe it to other people, they won’t understand what I’m feeling. They won’t. It’s not their fault; we just don’t completely understand anyone else’s feelings, that’s all, usually not even ours.
It’s hurts to think why I’m feeling like this way. I just can’t “man up” right now. I’ve been denying this to myself way too long.
Day 1: Your best friends
I don’t have a person whom I tell absolutely everything to since I also believe that one can’t know everything about a person, much less even about half of his life. What I have, however, are real close friends who know me the most, and those are the people whom I consider my best friends.
Khem is one of the less than five people whom I told my deepest, darkest secrets to. Told because I don’t have deep, dark secrets at present, only in the past. ;) She’s one of the people I trust the most when it comes to dark stuff about myself.
Back in high school, we played a game. I interlocked my fingers and you put pressure against them; then, you asked me a question. A question I couldn’t answer because it was a secret of another friend; an answer I could not possibly disclose. At the end you gave up, let go of my hands (after me telling you to stop ‘cos it hurt already :p), and you said that it was a test. A test to find out whether or not I can keep a secret, and from then on you trusted that I could.
Thank you so much for your friendship. Thank you because you trust me and I can trust you. Although we don’t talk much now, I’m happy that when we talk again, we’re still comfortable in sharing stories with each other. There have been many misunderstandings in the past, most because of both of our stubbornness, but I’m glad that all of those are done. :)
I miss talking to you. I hope that we can both find more time to talk to each other over the net. :p That would be great. :)
LA and Anna are two of the people whom I know I can completely act silly with and it’ll be okay. They’ve pretty much seen and heard me at my low, low, low moments, so I already know that they can take me despite my moodiness and not easily liked attitudes.
Honestly, the first thing I would thank you guys is for listening to my unending rants in the past. Truthfully, without you guys, it would be hard because if you weren’t there to listen, I would have probably talked to myself a lot and who knows what effect that would have had on me. :p
Thank you for your trust and patience. Skype ulit tayo minsan. I miss you :)
Honestly though, I am close with the whole Ochopac (Khem, LA, Anna, Lorraine, Sai, Ia, Pau). They have been my closest friends back in high school after all. To them I owe the realization that there is real friendship and that not all friends leave. You guys are the reason why my fear of being close to people has significantly lessened. Thank you. ♥
Apo is one of my first closest guy friends; first of my closest guy friends actually. I think that it’s pretty cool that we’re friends. I think that it’s pretty cool that he didn’t drift away despite my past confession, lol :p
Tulad nung dati ko pang sinasabi, pakabait ka na, bes. :p Hahahaha. Thank you for always reminding me that it’s OK to be chill, that it’s OK to make mistakes and that it’s OK to not always be perfect. :) I’m really happy for you because you found the girl that could turn not only your world but also you upside down. :p Keep up the good work ;) I miss you!
Lnzi and Mukeh are two of my closest friends here in university. I still think that it’s awesome how unexpected our friendship was. I think it’s great how I can act both childish and mature with you guys; and Mukeh would sometimes even be surprise and even be like “Woah” when I act childish, lol.
Thank you, Mukeh, my Kuya and Lnzi, my sister. :) You two are few of the people who have led me to deepen my faith. :)
Thank you for being open, for understanding that despite my mature front, I have a lot of issues deep inside; and thank you for trying to understand those issues.
Despite our busy schedules, we still get to go out and eat at McDonald’s and talk at late nights. Thank you for bringing me home especially at night when I get paranoid with strangers in the environment.
Thank you for the trust, unlimited kwentos and helping me overcome my socializing issues. :p Tuloy lang, hm? :)
It always fascinates me because despite my shy self, I still manage to join the right groups and get close to the right people. I think that it’s amazing how God brings me to certain places and introduces me to certain people which and who make me realize certain important things. You guys are blessings. Thank you. ♥
This is nice :)
I’ll try to do this :-)
